Loneliness

I don't know what is going on with me. I can't stop feeling this need to be held. I am so lonely nowadays that I cannot bear face people coz then they'll see this need in my eyes. I know I am where I should be in my life. It doesn't matter that most my friends are married with kids already, I have succesfully raise my 10 year old brother, I have an inkling how it feels to be responsible for someone. But the thing is all this while I have been looking after people, starting from my mom and everyone else around me. Even with my ex I was the nurturer, even though he was 10 years older than me. I just need someone to hold me, care for me, love me! Is that too much to ask? Well I gues my time has not come, but I wonder when does the universe see fit to send me my soul mate?

Nice Weekend

Had a marvelous weekend! Went to the seaside with two of my friends from work. Brought Abang along, he had a marveloust time frolicking in the sea. Since he's only ten I had to be there with him. This time of the year the water was quite deep and the wave high and strong. So I spent two hours for each of the two days with him in the water.

Shima and Kak Limah gave a surprise belated birthday. We had delicious cake, funny candles for me to blow on, and marvelously interesting presents. Well who said I had a bad birthday this year. Actually I think belated birthday is the best, coz you don't expect it.

Class have started. Met with the students. Laid down my rules and as usual they gasp at my essay fine for being late to class, students hate essays.

Well that's all for now.