Calmer and Saner

It has been a few days since my last post, and I am calmer and more able to see that things is not as bad as it seemed. Things have been put into perspective, as usual my dear old dad have alot to do with that. I don't know what I will do once I don't have his calm perspective to reel me back into normalcy. Well I hope I don't have to think about that for a while yet.

I intended to write a tribute to my parents but somehow I can't find the words yet, maybe when I have more time. Well till then....

I must be out of my mind

Well, it happen again, the stress has got to me. I am barely holding on to the thread of sanity, and the control I have held over my emotion has snapped. God, I thought I could do this, survive, but the multiple attacks I had had from all front has slowly tire me me down. Even as I am typing this, I know I am not making sense, How I know? Because my controlling self has started making it self heard again trying to make me grasp back the hold on sanity. Oh god! Help! Well I know I'll delete this later when things are back in control, but right now I need to get this out and writing it out is better than hearing it blabbed out to inapropriate people.