I must be out of my mind

Well, it happen again, the stress has got to me. I am barely holding on to the thread of sanity, and the control I have held over my emotion has snapped. God, I thought I could do this, survive, but the multiple attacks I had had from all front has slowly tire me me down. Even as I am typing this, I know I am not making sense, How I know? Because my controlling self has started making it self heard again trying to make me grasp back the hold on sanity. Oh god! Help! Well I know I'll delete this later when things are back in control, but right now I need to get this out and writing it out is better than hearing it blabbed out to inapropriate people.